working on life

Somethings to work on this week for example are the greenling institute applications tomorrow we work on obtaining the coro recommendation these are the things that most motivate my personal ambitions as for work I can multi task I now have to work those extra 20 hours hopefully I can save money enough to keep my projects going and to live comfortable

es interesante porque antes no era asi
estoy cambiando tenlo por seguro

ESTP - "Promotor". Action! When present, things begin to happen. Fiercely competitive. Entrepreneur. Often uses shock effect to get attention. Negotiator par excellence. 4.3% of total population.

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ENTJ - "Field Marshall". The basic driving force and need is to lead. Tend to seek a position of responsibility and enjoys being an executive. 1.8% of total population.

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Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (70%) high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity. Accommodation (66%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex). Orderliness (66%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, neat, structured and restrained at the expense too often of flexibility, variety, spontaneity, and fun. Emotional Stability (64%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. Inquisitiveness (82%) high which suggests you are very intellectual, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical.

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People I admire

I was thinking about my dream job and then I found a person who is doing just that. Luisa Cabal works at the Center for Reproductive Rights and she is the legal director for litigation at the international level. That would be my dream. And then I saw an ad idealist for:
That is something I could do
Its just how do I get there?
So let me create a path....

The International Legal Fellows will be responsible for legal and policy analysis of a variety of international reproductive rights issues. In particular, the International Legal Fellow will work under the supervision of the ILP’s Deputy Director and Legal Advisers to: conduct general legal and policy research on international law, human rights law, and foreign and comparative law, as well as on U.S. laws that impact women's reproductive rights globally; support the ILP’s international human rights litigation by developing factual records and drafting legal memoranda, pleadings and amicus briefs; draft submissions to UN and regional human rights bodies and prepare materials for major UN conferences; and research and draft Center publications for stakeholders in different regions. International travel required.

Oaxaca

Todo se habla de amor y no se que decirte. Camino en la calle y ya no oigo la voz interna tan fuerte ahora disminuida. Ay me miro caminando en las calles viejas pintadas en llamas gritando silenciosamente por revolucion. Sueño con mi querida soledad. Chanclas y Falda Larga. Corazon Libre. Recuerdas las noches en Oaxaca y la niña que me paro a hablar. Siempre viendome caminar detras de la cathedral despues de ir a ver las peliculas dirigidas por extranjeros trantandose de La Revolucion Mexicana. Pero nunca note la hija de una señora vendiendo rebozos de nube blanco. Me sente a ver los chavos zapateando y en mi corazon tenia el sonido del tambor feliz. Noche de agua de rosa aun borrosa. Y la niña me dijo: detras de mis oidos. Te he visto antes.

Senti nostalgia. La misma de esta noche en la cual le estoy extendiendole la mano invitandola otra vez a caminar conmigo y platicarme de su madre. Pienso en la violencia occurriendo ahorita en Oaxaca y me pregunto adonde estara.

thinking about the next big steps

I was wondering what I learned most about myself these past years and I came to a conclusion. I think that after life altering events in your life, one thing I have learned is not take myself for granted. I expect that from anybody else even though I really shouldn't but what the hell. I have come to this conclusion because when I have been most hurt, the reason behind all of those mixed feelings was that my feelings were taken for granted. In other words, assumptions were made about my feelings-thoughts about me that did not represent me-misunderstandings and I was not understood.

My perspective then has changed because I understand that life is fragile. I understand love as simple. I feel it and I express it. I say I love you and I mean what I say and I say what I mean. I limit my feelings and vocabulary to the essential. Life is simplified many folds at least from my perspective. I understand the complexities in the world that complicate this but I do not share it because I dont understand the need for so much drama and yet at the same time I do because I saw a need for it once.

Life tends to complicate itself and here is where confusion ensues. But then answer me: What can you do with raw and sincere love? How do you strip the bark of a tree without killing it?