my car

So now that I have my license( for reals this time yo) , I am considering buying a car. But first we should talk a little about this lovely car I tried out for a month my lovely prius. Oh woe how I treated it in the hwy and in the muggy streets of Miami.

Still I liked the quiet ride. The smoothness and if i had enough money i would buy it. I would have that money in the future but I really want to buy a used car at this point. We just need a ride at my house. It will be first car we buy.

la victima

Sometimes I am happy he is not around and no I dont feel bad. Damn it I want to things that I love. Oh God! did you stunt my growth. My midget social life that is evolving into something different than yours. A sin! Ay dios mio nunca dije que era perfecta y mucho menos una santa jaja. Y pa que vienes en la noche damn it. pa cojer nadamas. No quiero cojer cuando me digas que quieres. Y tu no quieres que te coje cuando se me pegue la gana. Y no me gusta que me digas cuando vas a venir no me gusta la inbalancia de poder. Y tu no te gusta que este tan ocupada que no pueda dedicar toda la vida entera. Hay que fastidio. Tanta felicidad

this is where i am at

Today I took an official me day. One of those days I declare that I have had enough and that its time to break. But today was technically not that. I spent the morning sleeping. I re-cooked myself a healthy lunch and picked up my mom at the hospital to see my grandpa. I dragged her out the hospital and spent the rest of the day at the gym and quickly shopping for clothing. All in all it went well. Beyond the point that I would have otherwise spent the day walking around a queens mall, I think it was still not an official me day. I answer or at least looked at emails but thats that.Otherwise I am happy how things turned out today. Happy I finally got my jean skirt and can now don my ska attire for sunday! hurray jaja. I find it kinda sick that everyday im feeling better that he is not around. I was thinking of the egg and chicken question: the car or the apartment. The car means that I can drive anywhere I want (in theory of course jaja), run errands and at least make my life a little more adventursome. Shall we travel to NJ or upstate? we shall we shall we shall. I would feel a lot more confident as well and we would get to look for homes at our own time. The apartment. Well I want my own space. A place I can decorate and have my things. I did say my things right? Not sure I want him living with me if he doesnt contribute to the rent. So the apartment means a 1 year lease for 1700 max. Thats 20,400. Unless he is meeting half of the expenses its a definate no. The car. Im thinking of spending max 4000+2000 (insurance)+1000 (extraneous expenses)=7000. I have that money. I feel a little anxious in spending it...Oh and that dream of buying a house one day...I forgot about that one.

Compremen esto porfa....:-)

musings

I absolutely hate chasing after grown men who act like kids. But then again I am one of them. Should I say I am not surprised? Hiding with his friend. Then his announcement also fell like cold water. But i wasnt surprised either. Im not sure why it hurt anyway. Ooooo in less traumatic events. I love etsy. I love decorating and finding new stuff in etsy. Its something my creative wing loves. Something I never get a chance. right? i am just being anal? Well congratulations now you understand the tilltilation of someone wanting you desperately